Tuesday 10 September 01:39 PM
I have a story to tell you.
@jenpastiloff calls them bullshit stories. they are the stories that we believe, even though they’re not true, because they make it easier for us to hide and be smaller than we are. the ones we tell ourselves so that we have a reason for not wanting/claiming/making more.
the bullshit story I’m about to share I’ve only shared with a few of my closest friends. it’s about being pretty.
I have a twin sister. growing up she was pretty. people told her, “you’re so pretty.” I don’t remember anyone (apart from my husband) telling me that. I’m sure people did but I don’t remember it. instead I chose to believe the story that not only was I not pretty, but not being pretty meant I couldn’t want/claim/make more.
it’s not that I didn’t make or sell stuff but that I made less and sold less because I hid behind my bullshit story.
there is a lot of “not pretty” art out there. art that people love not because it’s pretty but because it means something to them. because it speaks to them. to the parts of them they don’t measure in pretty but measure, instead, in beautiful. beautiful is very different than pretty.
I don’t know if I’m pretty. it’s hard for me to say. but I do know that I’m beautiful. beautiful in the way I love and give, the way I care and live. beautiful because I’m human and that is enough to want, claim, and make.
on thursday I’m interviewing jen. she shares all of her bullshit stories in her book, online, and in person because she knows they are not true. that everyone has them and no one needs to believe them. I can’t wait to share her words with you.
until then, may we all ditch the bullshit stories and want, claim, and make as much as our heart and soul desires.